I'm proud of myself for wht i managed to do before sleeping last night.
Due to some change in sleeping arrangements last night,
I slept with my mom on her bed and my sis next to us on her single bed.
I tried to not to, but the moment my mom hugged me, I started crying.
She kept patting and soothing me...
She said everyone has to go someday,
just that for him it came earlier..
And kept asking me to stop, she said I'll see him again someday...
Do I believe in that? No.. but I didnt say that to her....
It kept getting worse no matter how hard i tried to not to,
finally she gave up and started crying as well..
Thatz when i forced myself to stop..
And i heard my little sister crying from her bed too..
I'm proud of myself. I bring joy to my family.
Later, my mother asked me if i cry like that every day..
I wanted to say no... But i coudnt..
I was so tempted to say I sit by myself every night and cry to sleep..
But I didnt..
Enough joy already...