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I was reading through my last post about my indecisiveness on the next course of action upon graduation and remembered the multitude of things that were running through my mind at that point of time. There were a lot of things ( read: dreams :D ) that I was eager to pursue, and admittedly, some were almost impossible. Hehehe. But hey, they say, aim for the sky, at least the stars will then be within your reach. :D

Anyway, here I am now, almost two months into my first job, and at the furthest I’ve ever been from my so called aspirations. But let’s dwell on that later.

At the moment, I’m enjoying myself. Work’s real fun, or shall I say classes? It is going to be classroom training for the first three months, so until March it will just be classes and assignments and exams and no real work, just like back in campus.
There are nineteen of us in the class, with six girls. Our wonderfully animated and funny trainer’s from Luzon and she’s a delight to learn from. :D

The training started off well, found it interesting in fact, plus the colleagues are a fun bunch to hang out and work with. But it has gotten tougher and the exams much tedious, we had a test that lasted twelve hours non-stop and the following one, seven hours. The final and supposedly toughest module is to start in two days, and I’ll have to wait and see how I fare in that. Hehehe.

Back to the things-that-I-wanna-do topic, looks like I’ll have to put most of them on hold at the moment. I’ll have to see how my job goes and hopefully it will be a good opportunity to save up some money and then decide and work hard on what needs to be done after that. It will be a very sad thing for me if I fail to realise the dreams that I hold dear to my heart. As for the things that can be started off right away, I shall work on that soon and not procrastinate any further.

On a more abstract note, I’ve been having some conflicts. And it’s more of the internal kind. I have come to realise that it is not necessarily the best thing if everything around us goes on very smoothly all the time, because when that happens, we become too complacent. Whereas the little things that inevitably come along and require some solving in a way make us reflect more, think more deeply, and push us to look at things from a much broader perspective. And together with that will come character building, maturity, the ability to appreciate and most importantly self discovery. And so that's how I've been looking at the conflicts, no complains at all.
Besides, everything has been good and I appreciate that a lot. :D

NOW WHAT?

Hey! :D

I last wrote when I was just starting my industrial training. Now, it has almost come to an end and has brought me uncertainties.

I’m at crossroads now. For most people, this may be the second time, the first being when they had completed their secondary education. And that might have been a big decision for them. And the one similar to what I’m faced with now would probably be just following through.
But somehow for me, it’s different. Partly because back then towards the end of secondary school, I had already decided what exactly to do and where, and I was in no doubt at all.

But now, I’m faced with such indecisiveness and uncertainties like never before and it feels like such a huge thing. Perhaps because I believe that my decision at this point will change the course of things in my life forever. Oops, that sounded a bit too serious.

So anyway, I’m at crossroads now.
Where do I go from here and what do I do?

In truth, I do know how I’d love to do things, but the more I ponder, the more I realize that probably none will materialize. There are just too many things to consider.

For one, I am yet to determine where my interest is. Not just interest, but I probably could say passion, something that I can see myself doing with complete involvement. When I start working, I want to do what I’d be able to put my heart into. It may not at all be a high-paying or glamorous job, but it has to be something I’d wake up in the morning and look forward to doing. I do not fancy simply doing what the situation has to offer, and then somewhere halfway wake up with a midlife crisis regretting what I chose to do, for it might be too late then.

I definitely want to further my studies first and not jump into the job market yet.
Having done the first degree that I have, I see that there are a lot of openings and opportunities to specialise in just about any field that I’d like, thanks to the various emerging multi and cross disciplinary courses and more innovative universities. Moreover, now that there is more need for professionals with various specialisations, it has become increasingly possible to pursue the most unlikely combination of fields. In fact, it will no longer be surprising to encounter someone who is a, like what a friend had jokingly put, “a software engineer practicing law in a hospital”.
That makes me happy, because I seem to be interested in a wide variety of subjects, and I think I will do something unconventional. Maybe that’s where my passion is. Hehe.

But, there is then the money to think about. No, not the earning part, shall leave that for later. I mean the necessary funds to pursue what I want. The parental unit is there of course and sponsorship up to a certain amount has been guaranteed, but then, there is an urge within to be independent. But that will mean less resource and a hindrance. Not to mention that I have no idea yet what the resource will be. The one that I have been looking at asks in return for something along the line of 8% per annum.

And then, there is the ‘where’ question. But I guess once I have the ‘what’ and ‘how’ bits solved, the answer for this will fall in place.

But then again, when many my age are already thinking of and en route to earning big money, I seem to be finding ways to spend it and leave myself in big debts even before a proper start. Kiyosaki wouldn’t be too happy, after all he says that people who study too much of other things and not personal finance management will die poor. Maybe I shall heed his advice and emulate his rich father and take risks and invest the money instead and buy a company instead of working for one and make money work for me and live rich and die rich. Prior to that, I think its better that I finish reading his book. Perhaps there is a twist at the end.

But one that’s aplenty and free at the moment is advice. While I appreciate views that are meant to help, sometimes I can not help but lose patience when given without being asked for. Badly put negative comments, I-told-you-so’s, you-should-have’s and the likes please steer out of my way I say. I will ask if I deem the person “fit” enough to offer his or her suggestions, otherwise I’ll mind my own business and so you will you thank you.

So, where do I go from here? I shall take a break give myself some time to think thoroughly, see what’s worth being risked for and decide what to do, something that I’ll be fully content about, whatever it may be.

I will not seek to please the mass or anyone for that matter though that is not going to be easy. That way, I can hold myself fully responsible for my decision.

At least, one day, I can look back to this day and be proud of myself for having the courage to pursue what I had believed in.

Hello Again!

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